a day in my life

Man… time flies, not only when u r having fun anymore, but it just do.  Two weeks went by without me realizing it, and it makes me wonder.. how productive have i been for the past 2 weeks… hmm..

lets see… i started the week busy finishing my lecture notes so that i can distribute them to my students… actually its kinda hard to do these when u have to type a semester’s worth of knowledge within a week. Lucky me its the 5th time teaching the course, i practically remembered every single word in the slides, makes things a lot easier…hehe..

then… i had to spent 2 days in bed, coz i couldnt get up at all… fyi people i have a prolapsed disk on my back, and the condition gets worse when i spent extra hours of seating put at the desk… or just seating doing work for a long time without stretching at all… i must have hurt my back really bad coz i couldnt move without feeling jolts of pain up my back… sakit gila… nasib baik i have a housemate now, ada jugak org nak tolong (btw thanks yer fatiha..hehe) nak harapkan miau-miau tuh… hmm… besar rahmat laa… my parents came and took me home to SP, after stopping by the specialist so i can conviniently get a shot in my bum to reduce the swelling in my disk.. ouch!

my darling came by on Saturday to drive me home… i had to put on ‘reinforcements’ (read corset) all the time so that i can sit properly and not strain my back with my ungodly posture… hehe.. got back home, and the ball start rolling again… but with more caution this time.. i had to take painkillers, and somehow it caused me to eat more… aisehhh.. dah naik 3 kg la macam nie…huhu…

lecture days went by in a daze… i felt that i talked a lot more this semester (maybe coz i had to stand in for my colleague who’s on maternity leave)… and potentially could strain my voice box… so note to self.. must bring water to lecture everyday. it has been a week since the Dean gave me a task, and to my dismay i realized that i have not started doing anything… alamakk!!! note to self again… must start tomorrow..hmm..

a week went by and i went to see the doctor for a follow up and he gave me milder painkillers that would (hopefully) not raise my appetite like the previous one does.. God knows how badly i need to stay in shape… with the wedding being less than 5 months away.. took my mom to SSF Penang to get more wedding supplies (and spent more money huhu….), spent a day at home with my family and drove back to Sintok this morning. I cooked dinner for my darling, had a lovely time with him… can’t believe how much i missed him. Isn’t it amazing how someone makes you long for them without even realizing it?

No of completed bunga pahar : 54

No of completed bunga dulang : 3   

dalam malam malam yang suram aku merenung langit..

ku lihat wajah awan kaku membisu tanpa kata..

ku berpaling kepada bulan..

bulan bagai menangis..

langit merintih..

gegak gempita halilintar memekik menerjah bumi yang haus tandus..

terpercik tanah tanih meloncat cepat..

bagai mahu menerkam bintang kerdip di langit..

lalu angin semiri datang..

hembus halus membawa pergi derita..

meniup wangian awan cinta..

terubat luka parah nanah yang pecah..

bagai satu tonik ajaib..

lalu sembuh tanpa parut..

licin suci indah dan harum..

percikan ganas hujan telah pergi berlalu..

burung burung terbang mula menyanyi..

unggas mengalun lagu..

bagai satu simfoni indah semula jadi..

muncul pula mentari pagi..

tanah tanih yang terpercik..

berubah manjadi pulau indah..

segala benih mekar tumbuh seribu bunga..

lalu..

kukarangkan bunga menjadi perana indah..

untuk ku letakkan di bawah rimbunan daun cinta..

ku letakkan di atas hamparan kasih..

bersama untuk kita bersanding..

-AaNz-luv

Thanks abang … i love u.

It has been raining all day, though the it is delightfully cold (makes you want to sleep and huddle in your blanket) I am slightly worried that the rain may cause the river near my college be flooded… and that might make us in Kachi be disconnected from UUM for a day or two… hopefully not, coz I am in the drive to work hard!! So, kalau tak boleh pergi kerja mcm rugi la kan…

anyways, its the first day of lecture for the 2nd semester this session.. I am trying to take a different approach in my teaching this semester insya Allah for the better kan.. I went into the lecture hall, just half of the class was there… mebbe its the rain, mebbe its the 1st day etc but still i took the attendance..hehe.. my previous students thought that i become more strict each semester… well maybe, but one thing i know, i do try my best to improve each semester so i can do my bit in helping to shape future leaders and generations… each semester i will encounter the same thing, students not wanting to speak up in class when I try to open a discussion…they are perfectly normal ppl yet once i say the magic words.."what do you think about that…?" suddenly semuanya senyap.. pelik sungguh…one of the reason i try to be more open and friendlier in lectures is to encourage them to speak up in class and be more comfortable and confident addressing ppl in public… tapi, setakat ni tak berjaya lagi… will work harder on that lah…

today is also the first day I go to work without my darling eversince we got together… i miss him terribly… was sort of expecting his call today when i finished my lecture to ask me where i was and to decide where to have lunch.. of course for the past 2 semesters in order to cut costs and save up, we bought lunch from home… home cooked meal… kalau dah malas masak, baru la pegi kedai… hmm… miss cooking for him and having our lunch together… but in all, its a good time for me to control my diet la jugak before the wedding Still, i felt a bit lonely, not being able to meet him everyday when we drive together to the campus in the morning or meeting him in the evening when its time to go back to the college… *sigh*

missing him…

No of completed bunga pahar : 54

No of completed bunga dulang : 1 (but the petals are ready lah…)

hmm… KL… one place i like to go, never to work there though.. everything is fast-paced and profit-oriented… ppl who are used to work in a slow and steady Sintok like me will find it hard to adjust to the pace. not that i didn’t get any offers there…adaaa… tapi macam payah sikit laa at the moment… later in life, no one knows lah.. but have always enjoyed going to KL… especially if shopping is one of my itinerary.. hehe.. and to meet up my darling koncu…no greater friends a girl can ask for.. and my uni friends Asma, Rewa, Basha and Maz:-) this time i only managed to meet one of my darling koncu, Fariny and her hubby Saiful.. itupun tak sampai 15 minit.. nak buat camner, full schedule..

my family, my sweetheart and I went to KL for our family trip this year, actually we wanted to go somewhere more vacation-holiday type of place but since me and my fiance needed to get some things for our wedding (kan tengah sale time tuh…hehe) so the entire family decided to make a trip out of it..it was great fun .. and a lot of food being consumed… jokes shared and laugther exchanged…money was spent (huhu… dah kering kontang ni…), work and diet abandoned (mampossss…) but  anyhow i feel loved. my sweetie and I met my family in KL (they went a few days before us) and spend 3 days there before coming back to Kedah.. not to forget we did stop at DOLI Kueytiaw in Taiping for dinner… i had a great time eventhough my back suffered..huhu sakit sgt..

you see, my family enjoyed travelling to great extent… walaupun dalam Malaysia aje, and even if we need to drive 2 cars.. we make it a point to go someplace together every year.. last year was Kuching, the year before was Kelantan.. 2 years ago it was Kota Kinabalu… next year? entahlah… nak pegi mana pulak yer? Insya Allah, the tradition goes on… hopefully the day comes when i can afford to bring everyone abroad for a nice vacation.. so… kena la kerja kuat dari sekarang!!!

No of completed bunga pahar : 54

No of completed bunga dulang : 1 (hehe… siap jugak prototype)