a day in my life

today is the day where the faculty meets the new students.. seems just like yesterday when I was a freshie in UKM, full of hopes and dreams… really really hope to be excellent… hmm.. looking back, I knew that I could’ve done better but hey, no regrets… I enjoyed every single moment of pain, misery, laughter and success there… I hope I gave the best speech in motivating the newbies today, in encouraging them to be more involved in uni life… I hope some of my excitement and motivation rubbed off to them… so that they realize how precious time is in uni life and how lucky they are to be here..

these few days back at work were quite overwhelming… PENAT sangat… suddenly I am loaded with sooooo many things to do, and it hit me like a bucket of ice water… and gave me shooting headaches.  my shoulders are stiff and back is again aching… early signs of stress. the thing is, I always have these symptoms, and it’s due to pass anytime but its kinda my warning system that I have to be prepared to work my ass off for sometime… aaargghh feel a sudden need to hang out at some nice beach…hmm?

so here I am doing work almost every nite n day… sure its tiring… but I’ve come to terms with that, keeps my mind off things and be more focused on critical issues… I need to train myself to only think about problems when I am NOT working, meaning to schedule a few minutes a day to just worry.. hehe.. weird huh, but I read somewhere that it might just work… need to train my mind not to think of too many things at a time… so that when I eventually go for my PhD, I am well prepared =)

hey all… been awhile since I last blogged, can’t believe how fast time flies… of how many things had happened, when sometimes I never thought I could survive any of the problems that I faced.. Alhamdulillah for the support and love I receive everyday… for the strength the Almighty has given me through all these times…

So lemme just summarize the past 6 months:

JANUARY - The start of the semester.. was totally excited and anticipated coz after the long break and the floods.. hehe.. the students were coming back and of course my boo will be near me at all times.. (I am so thankful that we left december that caused us soo much pain sweetheart, thank you for keeping me strong) Started the year with a new resolution..and am glad to be keeping it real. I thought a new course, SISTEM KUALITI.. quite a challenge to be handlling such a big class but I loved it… thought MOT2 for a couple of weeks… then changed to CONS INNOVATION & TECH… due to some changes in the number of academic staff..

FEBRUARY - Came with a bang… and suddenly found myself with extra workload, having to stand in for a fellow staff for the entire month … and added another subject in my portfolio PROJECT MGT…though I hated the situation, I enjoyed teaching the new subject… learned soo much from the situation.. that work is indeed your best friend, and can be one of the most rewarding relationship that you’ll ever have.. This month I learned that there couldn’t be a love greater than what your parents have for you.. and how you can easily take them for granted.. and sweetheart.. you keep me sane through the days..

MARCH - my 6th beautiful month with my boo.. though there were people trying to keep us down, being nasty bitches and bastards by poking their noses where they were not supposed to… it just further proved that these people were soooo bloody insecure with themselves to be such busybodys… and sooo sure that they were doing the ‘right thing’…which brings us to the question: what is the right thing? Believing and having faith in what is right for you or Trying to live your life to satisfy others? For those with such nasty hearts good luck in having a satisfying life, coz the way I see it there’s no way that you could be happy if you keep your noses in other people biz… you will never be at peace.

APRIL - Exam month… such a busy month.. also the month that brings us many good news and fortune…Alhamdulillah. I hoped that I gave the best that I could to my students.. though it pissed me off to find them cheating in the exam.. was soo damn furious that my whole body was trembling in the exam hall .. what good would cheating in the exam bring?? that you’ll further be cheating yourself in life.. and don’t ever expect that you’ll land a great job if you make your way through by cheating… You will learn nothing!!! This was also my best birthday ever thanks to my boo.. for his love and patience with me.

MAY - the start of the long semester break… sooo quiet at the hostel that sometimes at nite I can hear myself breathe… Can’t believe I managed to stay here all by myself… try not to think about it too much, for it will only make me afraid.. I do believe in life that certain things must just be done, and we shouldn’t dwell on things too much.. this is my home, my space and my comfort zone the faculty’s more quiet, with most of the staff going to conferences/field work including myself.. and also was keeping myself busy with engagement preparations… and met my best friend Maz who came back after 4 years abroad…we had a blast!

JUNE - Has got to be one of my most memorable month…am now engaged to my boo… Alhamdulillah, we survived so much sayang.. the engagement thingie was my main agenda for the whole month and it just takes my breath away to learn how much my family loves me… everyone came together for my engagement, my konch was there with me, my darling cousins Nadya, Farrah & Angah… making things perfect for me. My engagement was done in the most traditional way… ikut adat Perak (which means bertunang pun macam kenduri kawin to some ppl) I am soo touched by the way I am celebrated… I guess that was what Malay customs is all about, coming together to make things good… never pay to much attention to adat before, but I see now how beautiful and meaningful the way our ancestors had planned things like this.. making it such a memorable experience for me.. for those planning to get engaged, go all traditional on this.. you won’t regret it believe me

So there it was my past 6 months.. and in a few days’ time the uni’s gonna be full again with students coming back and i guess the cycle will repeat itself again. I am feeling the excitement of preparing new course teaching materials… and hope that this semester will be better for me, my boo and my students. For all my students in their practical training, do your best and learn hard for this experience is once in a lifetime.. take care alrite!!

Miss my boo terribly…just a few more days till he’ll be back and can’t wait to get the ball rolling again…and to create another 6 beautiful months..