a day in my life

1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket.
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Chocolate milkshake. (or vanilla or  strawberry!)
12. A bubble bath.
13. Giggling
14. A good conversation.
15. The beach!
16. Finding a 20 dollar bill in your coat from last winter.
17. Laughing at yourself.

18. Midnight

    phone calls that last for hours.

19. Running through sprinklers.
20. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
21. Having someone tell you that you’re beautiful.
22. Laughing at an inside joke.
23. Friends.
24. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
25. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
26. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
27. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
28. Playing with a new puppy or kitten
29. Having someone play with your hair.
30. Sweet dreams.
31. Hot chocolate.
32. Road trips with friends.
33. Swinging on swings.
34. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
35. Making chocolate chip cookies.
36. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
37. Holding hands with someone you care about.
38. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
39. Watching the expression on someone’s face as they open a much desired present from you.
40. Watching the sunrise.
41. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
42. Knowing that somebody misses you.
43. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.
44. Knowing you’ve done the right thing, no matter what other people think.

Do such thing exists … when people say let’s forgive and forget, do they really mean it? Came to contact with a ‘ghost’ from my past last nite, and for a moment i was surprised to find myself calm and feeling nothing …  though i am reminded of the many ways i rehearsed the scenario of our next encounter.. not always pleasant, and yet, there i was handling it the other way round. Not to say i enjoyed the encounter, but somehow i managed to find my closure after all these months. That’s the thing, i always thought that i’ll never be able to forgive and forget especially for what happened … and guess what, i did just that last nite. Never felt better … perhaps we should change the saying "forgive and forget" to "forgive you a little bit now … and maybe after many, many, many, months i’ll be able to forget what you did..?" Now, there’s a thought…:-)

Sometimes i think it is pointless to let people come too close, an insult from the one you love hurts a million times more than a slap from a stranger… hmmm, but that’s just me thinking, love has been known to change people … whether it is for the better or in my experience … probably for the worst. But still love is essential … surrounds you in a beautiful feeling. Bask in it, enjoy it … Make the most of it people … you never know what you got ’till its gone!

Here i am, still trying to make sense of what’s going on in my life … how different i am from what my job requires me to be … is that gonna be a problem? sometimes i think i live a double life, where i have to behave well and be respectable, and serious and smart when all i want is just to take things easy and enjoy the opportunities that life presented me, live my life to the fullest. Don’t get me wrong, i absolutely, truly love my job there’s nothing else i’d rather do, it’s just irks me that i have to be a different person to live up to the image the job brings … letihnya. It’s just the plus and minus thing i guess…the perfect balance of all the things in our life. The grand plan of our life. C’est la vie.